SANDY HOOK Whistle-Blower Doubts NOAH POZNER Actually Died

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Hey everyone, yes. So I know I said I was gonna make this well in the next 24 hours and it's been 24 hours I guess less than 24 hours for me, but I'm not sure about everyone else. But yes, I hope everyone's doing well. So today I'm just gonna talk about like you know just getting to detail about what it is that I really know about no appasm and no relationship with Daniel Vabner. In my personal opinion thinking about it now, it didn't feel like a person who had lost their sibling. It felt like maybe she knew him, you know, fairly well. She took pictures with him. But like you know even like she never really gave a lot of detail about like you know the things that they would do together, the trips they would go on and so on. So at that, you know, because of your family, but then I just she never really disclosed much about her family altogether because it was pretty separated. You know different fathers for the children, the children, the children her father and the mother was over here and then you know it was a sickle weird conglomeration of things. So I never really got like the full story and I only knew her for about like I said for about six, seven months even though we were close. We never really shared much about you know that kind of stuff. But after you know before Sandy Hook happened, she was talking about how like you know she's facing a lot of financial issues and then after that you know she was flying to California and Florida her family was and telling her and her from her mother calling her telling her to take a week off of school and come to Florida and spend time with us and you know for a family that was facing foreclosure that was pretty surprising. Pazner by all accounts made a big impression on everyone. He met little boy who was funny and smart, who loved animals and tacos and most of all his family and it was sister Danielle who joins me now. So sorry about your loss. How are you how has the rest of the family holding on? Well right now we're just trying to take it day by day but of course sometimes that's easier said than done so I often find myself thinking you know about the future and about how Noah will never get to have the life that he was supposed to have. He'll never get to be a man but I guess the one thing the one positive thing that I can say has come out of this is that my family has learned to appreciate each other in ways that we never have before and you know just like the rest of my family has said Noah adored his family more than anything else in the world and I think that that would make him proud that we've all you know grown closer instead of been torn apart by this. He used to joke about or actually used to claim that he was a manager to taco factory. Yeah yeah. Was that just because he loved tacos? Yeah it was his dream to work in a taco factory and he would tell us all the time. I have my part-time job at the taco factory and I was like no you don't how do you even get there you can't drive and he was like he's like don't worry about it. It's a secret. That's funny. Yeah so he was full of jokes always. Are you able to I think for many times people have experienced loss it's hard to sometimes to talk about the person and to keep kind of keep them in conversation. Are you and your your your family you're able to to talk about it? Yeah I mean it's not as great as what he went through and how his life ended was horrible and it's the least we can do to honor his short life. He didn't get to live the life that he was supposed to live. He only got six years and we owe it to him to keep him alive by talking about him to everyone and we want everyone to feel the loss that we feel because it's a it's an enormous loss. And you have younger sister? Yes I have two younger sisters and I understand they still speak of him the first person. They do. They talk about him like he's still here and whether it's because they haven't fully accepted it or just because that's the way or because they want to keep him alive I'm not sure but I think that just the fact that they talk about him like he's still around it it helps us imagine him as if he were with us. I always think about what he would say if he were here and you know in that way he stays alive in my mind because I can imagine exactly what his reaction would be to different situations and for me that really that keeps him here with us. It's nice. Yeah. You're going back to school for the first time since since the shooting. How that's going to be hard I would imagine being away from your family and being around other people who haven't been through what you have. Absolutely. It's definitely going to be hard but I think my mission I'm not going to just sweep this under the rug like it didn't happen. I I want to raise awareness about it and I want everyone to remember Noah too and life won't be like it was before this happened. Of course I'm going to you know still have my friends there for me and but it's it's not going to be the same so I'll do whatever I can to you know I guess it'll be a new normal as people say.